Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Looking back... Moving forward

   I hadn't written a blog til a few days ago.  What happened?  I don't know and I know, life happened.  I took a trip to India and I changed.  I guess after that I had been in a funk.  A funk like I hadn't ever felt before.  I loved being in India. I felt alive and real.  I have been able to incorporate that into my life now.  I re-read some of my older posts and have noticed what a different place I was in.  I also realized how much pain and hurt I had with me.  I still have some of that pain and hurt.  I know I have healed a lot of that pain.  It feels amazing knowing that I have survived it. I am strong and I can tell my story and grow from it.  I am a little sad that I didn't write more right after going to India.  I can always write from now on.  You will be hearing more about the trip and how my life is different than 4 years ago.  

9:49 - 10:11pm

  The other night my lady love asked me what time it was.  I don't know why, but I said it was 8:52pm when in fact it was actually 7:52pm.  I heard her go into the bathroom and didn't think too much of it.  At 8:30 she came out and said "goodnight, I am going to bed." I asked, "Already? It's only 8:30pm!" Oh my Ganesh, did I get a good laugh out of that.  I tend to play lots of tricks on the poor lady. One month I got her by putting pillows in the bed on my side and she would say goodbye to me thinking I was still sleeping, when in fact I was actually hiding!  She puts up with quite a bit of my shenanagins...  I love her and she loves me! Thank Ganesh she loves me, or else it would be a rough relationship! 
   On Sunday, I climbed with some women who have a climbing group.  It was awesome to climb again.  We did some strength training as well.  Man, I have been sore the past two days!  I am looking forward to seeing myself being able to climb for longer and stronger.  I am glad I decided to rest today and not climb in the afternoon.  
  Instead of climbing I went to visit my good friends and 2nd parents Rich and Lorna.  They are amazing and so dear to me.  I have realized they have been such a huge part of my life.  We have known each other almost 33yrs!  That is pretty amazing.  Most of my life.  I am greatful for their friendship and love.  I have learned to me my true self around them.  I feel safe and definiantely loved, seen and heard by them.  They were gone for a few weeks and it is nice to have them back in town.  I like that they are my friends as well as family.  It's nice to be able to know so much about each other.  I grew up with their two daughters.  We swam together, had sleepovers and got into trouble together.  Now when we see each other as adults we have some funny memories to share.  Such great people!  So greatful to have them in my life! 
  

Monday, January 20, 2014

Where did all the time go?

Wow, I didn't post anything for most of the year of 2013?  How crazy is that?  I guess I better get back to it.  It has been amazing to re-read some of my posts and to see where I was at prior years.  
   I feel like I have gone thru even more growth and changes.  I am about to enter  a career change.  Full on Post partum Doula.  With a speciality of adoption.  Yeah, my shit will be up!  It will be good to go thru this and it will be challenging.  I can always use a good challenge.  
    I am going to certify this time.  I didn't want to before, but 4 years of not having a certification has shown me that maybe it wouldn't hurt and it would make for being taken more seriously. I don't like to conform to society saying in order to do what you are good at you have to have a piece of paper to be this... that will be a rant for another post!  I have a training coming up at the end of Jan.  I am really looking forward to completing my certification and getting PPD underway! Wish me luck!